This morning, I cried so very hard.
I was so moved to tears that I simply sat on the floor, for a good thirty minutes, sobbing like a baby into my hands, with a towel that I used to wipe away the oncoming tears.
When I woke up, it was another ordinary day. It wasn’t so different to yesterday, really. Of course, each day is different but, you know what I mean. There was nothing special about today—but then, I was proven wrong.
I opened my prayer journal this very morning to share how I’ve been, how awful I felt, how great I felt, and blah-blah-blah, when my hand just suddenly stopped from writing and a sob escaped my lips.
At that very moment, my thoughts just completely vanished, and I was pulled into a silence so overwhelming that it made my hands shake and tears start pooling in my eyes.
Something so powerful came over me and I could do nothing but surrender in the comfort of my tears— and I may have looked like a maniac, staring up at the ceiling, crying and laughing at the same time. Because that very moment the most powerful silence came over me and shook me— it was the silent reminder of love.
I wish I could put into words that feeling of surrender and complete helplessness, you know? Because that moment felt like something I shouldn’t feel just by myself. Everybody deserved to feel that kind of love. It was the most liberating feeling of helplessness I’ve ever experienced, and it attacked me so spontaneously that I can’t help but marvel.
Every single day passes with the noise of life and living.
Today, I felt the powerful tug of God’s embrace. How He rendered me so powerless that I was just overflowing with the love He wanted me to feel that very moment, because I was so busy over myself, fussing over the world and all these things that I can’t even remember how to really listen, how to quiet my heart and just feel.
It was so powerful that I can’t help but write about it because, at this very moment, I am praying for you—you who are reading this right now—that He pulls you in the silence of a loving embrace. That you, in the bustle of life, feel the serenity of an all-loving Father who is so powerful, so great that you just sit and see how blessed and loved you are. Because you are loved and deserve to be loved, and every single day, if the world proves you to be undeserving, God will prove the whole world wrong.
It is the greatest love of all. The most perfect. And how relentless He loves. Forever.